When you hold your resentment against another person, you are bound to that person or situation by an emotional connection that is stronger than steel. Forgiving is the only way to dissolve this bond and reach freedom
I write you this letter, even though I know you will never read it. You hurt me, a lot of harm. In nature, there is no justice and I continue to suffer. But today, I realized that somewhere, I had to tear away the deep sorrow that I feel and that's what I'm going to do.
I am suspicious of rancor because she's not a good friend, that's why I do not want her with me. In addition, resentment leads us to feel fear and this is precisely what I must do away with. It's not that I'm afraid of you, it's that I'm afraid to relive my suffering and fall back into the same error.
Therefore, I decided that I had to face it, put myself in front of you and all that you mean, and argue. If I succeed in reducing this fear, I will be able to reduce all others.
I loved you and I trusted you. In fact, I did not ask for anything extraordinary, but if I had known, I would not have allowed you to hurt me. I will never forget that unbearable pain and everything you taught me anyway. In the end, I have to thank you for something.
I have learned that you are unable to give someone something that they do not want to receive. You had the luxury of letting me know it very clearly. I also learned the importance of knowing what's wrong and what's consuming you in your life.
I realized that you were so damaging to me that you did not let me go for a long time.
As the saying goes, true hate is disinterest and perfect killing is oblivion. I will not throw a stone up, because what is likely is that it falls on my head. It certainly would not bring me happiness, but on the contrary would add misery to my life without contemplation.
It is said that bleeding does not hurtthat it is rather pleasant, as if you were dissolving in oil and you were breathing deeply. The same thing happens with the pain of the soul, because it somehow anesthetizes you and you are not aware of what is supposed to be good for you, until it is too late.
I may be writing these lines with tears of blood and deep pain, but I am taking the lead and getting used to the rudder because it has come time to go further and to overcome what you provoked in me.
I have to tell you that I'm writing these words to you because behind my courage, there is great sadness, infinite humiliation and profound disappointment.
I feel like I'm walking over a volcano while my life hangs by a thread, so I have to drop the heavy burden that I'm supposed to charge with what you've caused in my inner being.
I do not need much to feel good, but that's why I have to get rid of all that pain. As of today, I do not hold you any rancor, anger or rage, because I do not want to clutter my heart with useless feelings.Any painful experience locks inside a seed of growth and release.
In fact, today I wondered if I could do something commendable, so I decided to write. This letter is not for you, it is for me, because I must free my shoulders from this burden.
I do not want something negative in my life and I realized that you were there, just like the way you make me feel.
I realized that reflecting on you is the greatest act of self-esteem I can carry out. Today, I can say that you are doing me a great service, because now more than ever I love myself.
I know that I do not want to make my body the grave of my soulthat I can deal with everything in me. One must not be afraid to live because everything is to relearn.
Pictures of Marc Little and Larissa Kulik